Thanksgiving

On this special day, where we pause to offer thanksgiving, there is one who sums up the words in my heart. If you aren’t already reading Ann VosKamp, A Holy Experience, you must. She is God’s mouthpiece to me on so many mornings. With her permission, I share her thoughts on being thankful. Truly life-changing.


The Real Joy Secret

I wake wanting to die.

Scarlet light bleeds over the horizon, another day aching in. I lie in bed. Pull covers up over my head. I’m withered dry and even the tears won’t fall: a heart drought. I lay listening to taunt of the namesLoser. Mess. Failure. Can I shrivel up invisible?

Mothers of six aren’t supposed to think this way. Not the happily-married, not the financially solvent.

Not the Christ-followers.

A year of mornings, I wake to the name calling, force feet to the floor anyways. I do pray.But self-hatred is a soul-eating disease and I’ve cut off parts off myself to survive.

I look in the mirror, into those eyes, and I know. It’s time for medication, some happiness from The Healer. Is that even a real possibility? My bones are brittle, dryness of the broken spirit; where on earth – in heaven — do I get some of that joy medicine?

I’m standing in the kitchen, a morning in early November, sky weeping too, colors of the world draining away with the rain, when Jesus hands me the word that He stabbed into the slimy underbelly of the enemy.

There’s a good medicine word.

To continue this beautiful poetic road, click here.


To my dearest readers and friends, may God abundantly bless your thankful heart.




Comments

  1. 5

    says

    Wow, I know everyone brings different feeling TO the words that others wrote. For me, I didn't feel the uplifting or positive power of those words. I read it in a time of my own happiness, joy, thankfulness, and so the words were heavy to me. They have brought me down, not up. It makes me sad that anyone feels so downtrodden, so depressed, so heavy. Sure, it's great that she can find comfort. But the fact that she needs comforting to bring her from SUCH a dark place is disheartening to me. I'm so thankful that even at my worst points I never carry such a burden.

  2. 7

    says

    When we were fired this August one would think my depression would had gotten worst. But no, it actually got better. I'm so glad to not be working for that company anymore.

    Marcus and I are heading to our church for Blessfest. While my husband is in for a long day at Kmart.

    We celebrated our Thanksgiving yesterday. Marcus and I made the whole dinner! And the hubby loved it!

    We wish you and your's a Happy Thanksgiving!

  3. 8

    says

    When we were fired this August one would think my depression would had gotten worst. But no, it actually got better. I'm so glad to not be working for that company anymore.

    Marcus and I are heading to our church for Blessfest. While my husband is in for a long day at Kmart.

    We celebrated our Thanksgiving yesterday. Marcus and I made the whole dinner! And the hubby loved it!

    We wish you and your's a Happy Thanksgiving!

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