What He Said

I’m sitting at the airport, looking out the window at huge lumps of snow, pushed into dirty piles. I’m a Texas girl and the blanket of snow that fell from Heaven was a gift.

It’s not the only one I hold in my heart today.

For two years, I’ve met God at Relevant. Last year, I quaked. He breathed courage to follow Him. And this weekend, I came emotionally and physically exhausted, the balance of juggling home, children, husband, writing, non-profit, dream-chasing teetered precariously.

But I let the tears come, laying the burden at his feet and leaned in to listen:

He revealed I have community wounds. But He showed me community would heal.

He uncovered my ugly desire for success. And He asked me to just be faithful. Because that’s how He defines success.

He reassured that I have a destiny. And promised to lead the way.

He reminded that what I’m doing doesn’t make me important, it makes me a Christian.

And He restored hope.

My spirit sustained as woman after woman shopped mercy.

I’m boarding the plane, tired.

But full.

Next time, I won’t wait for Relevant to hear what He wants to say.

I’ll just ask.

You should too.

He has a lot to tell you.

 

*Thanks @mamahall (pictured above) for setting up our table and serving and to Family Matters for sending me!

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    “He revealed I have community wounds. But He showed me community would heal.” Oh, Kristen, I hesitate to even tell you this, because you don’t know me and I don’t know you. But my heart so resonates with this. My husband and I have lived in this area for over five years, and we still feel like we have no real friends with whom to share life’s joys and struggles. Every other place we’ve lived, we’ve both always had lots of very good friends. We very often feel very lonely and very alone as we do our best to raise our baby boy. Both of our families are far away (mine live in Africa and his are in Texas), so we often feel the pain of having no family nearby to support us and to love on our little guy. We know that the body of Christ should (ideally) help fill this “hole,” but this hasn’t really happened for us, and it is so, so, so hard.

    Thank you for sharing so honestly on here. It helps my heart to know that this dry season doesn’t mean I’m a reject!

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    Hello, community wounded #34893720483204 here. We are watching God restore our hearts toward our community. It’s a wonderful thing to feel.

    Blessings.

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    I counted it a pleasure to meet you in person and see your genuine burden for serving and being used. Your ministry is a testimony and a ministry to ME! You are thunder! Please know my prayers go with you and I look forward to getting to know you and Mercy House better.

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    Praying for you. Thought of all of you at Revelant. Love the pic of the MH table.

    I think of you often…. pray for you when you come to mind.

    Always remembering….

    much love…

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    “And this weekend, I came emotionally and physically exhausted, the balance of juggling home, children, husband, writing, non-profit, dream-chasing teetered precariously.”

    I love your heart here…and empathize…So many women at Relevant this weekend are pursuing passions God has placed in their hearts, but it is NOT easy…it’s not easy to balance it all. Its hard, but it’s worth it, and you are doing a wonderful, wonderful work and God will continue to sustain you…I will pray that your heavenly father waters your soul this week…

    It was nice to meet you, if ever so briefly at your table!

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