It was just an innocent question. It came from someone I didn’t know. Or better, someone who didn’t know why on earth I founded a maternity home in Kenya, Africa.
My short answer: God kind of tricked me into it.
Kidding. Sort of.
She wanted to help me with strategic planning, big picture, longterm sustainability, non-profit management.
Y’all: I had no idea what she was talking about. And then the question:
“What is your plan to keep this going?” She motioned to the picture of sixteen people I love on the other side of the world.
I smiled and said, “This is all a miracle and none of it was my plan and I honestly don’t know.” I said the words with a confidence that spoke of the supernatural, but when it hit me like a ton of bricks in the middle of the night, I only felt the natural.
How will I keep this going? How did a small yes turn into $150,000 + a year and dozens of lives looking to me for direction?
I got out of bed and started crunching numbers, looking through notes of a new project and future development, and everything ended with a big question mark.
I tossed and turned myself back to sleep and woke up hung over with the heavy burden that comes from trying to see into the future and not being able to.
Then I opened my Jesus Calling devotion to these words, “I did not design the human mind to figure out the future. That is beyond your capability. I crafted your mind for continual communication with Me. Bring Me all your needs, your hopes and fears. Commit everything to My care. Turn from the path of planning to the path of Peace. “
Humble yourself under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6-7
And I felt Jesus calling me (again) to give it to Him. We aren’t meant to know the future. We are meant to live in such close communion with Him that He makes the future known, one step at a time.
I love these words by Corrie Ten Boon–
“Never be afraid to trust an unknown future to a known God.”
I don’t know. I’m saying it out loud and would wear it on a t-shirt if I could.
When this updated picture landed in my inbox this week, I took a deep breath. I couldn’t help but grin at those beautiful sassy faces. I touched each one, leaving smudges on my screen. I couldn’t stop the tears as I prayed over each girl and her baby.
I still don’t know how I’m going to keep it all going. But that’s usually the best place for God to show up.
Are you facing the unknown in life? Technically, we all are, we just have the illusion of control. Let’s say it together. I don’t know. Group Hug.
But it’s okay, we’re not supposed to.
He’s given us a hope and a future.