WFMW: How I Moved From Artificial Faith to the Real Thing

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I’m happy to introduce you to this week’s guest poster Edith for my Wednesday series Yes, Works For Me! Please welcome her and be encouraged by her yes to God and continue to link up what works for you.

Twelve years of silence in our home. No children to fill the space of our hearts with laughter. So, we waited.

Little did we know that God’s plan for our marriage was a journey of many “no” answers. Test after test, the answer was “no.” No, you cannot carry a child. No, the in-vitro has failed (twice). No, you will not be biological parents – ever.

The years ahead were valleys of spiritual dryness. I stopped caring for God’s plan. I didn’t understand how a loving God would allow us to experience such pain. So, I began to say no to God and those around me. I said “no” to baby showers. I said “no” to interacting with those around me. And ultimately, I said “no” to God.

Yet, God in His grace and mercy picked me up. From the dark cave, I emerged and began to hope again. This time, God spoke clearly to me in Isaiah 55:8, “My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the LORD. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.”

I held tight to His word, believing and trusting that He knew what was best for our marriage. The healing began, but this time things were different. My perspective shifted from what God can do for me to how I can serve God.

He reminded me of my desire to adopt. I was scared, but I shared with my husband. He resisted for a couple of years. Then, he was ready. So, we said YES to God’s plan.

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His plan was for us to become foster parents. It’s been the most rewarding, yet exhausting, experience. Saying yes hurts. Saying yes is painful. Saying yes is sacrificial. Yet, there is so much beauty in obedience. It is in the place of allowing God to lead our lives that we experience the heart of Jesus.

My heart’s true intentions began to surface. I moved from an artificial faith to the real thing. The counterfeit faith I lived for years had me plunged in a superficial way of living; living for self and others vs. living for Him. I’ve tasted both and there is no comparison. I take God’s plan – anytime.

After a couple placements in our home, we met our son, Jeremy. The adoption was finalized this May. I cannot begin to tell you, beloved, what joy I feel. God has entrusted us with this beautiful child, born from our hearts. The Lord truly knows our desires and His ways are perfect.

Today, I can honestly say that I would go back to those days of desperation – anytime – because I know that I had to be there to be able to say YES to Him today.

If you find yourself in such a place, know that He is there with you. Be still, beloved. Listen to His small voice, which is leading you to your YES. It’s going to be fabulous!

 

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Edith is an author, speaker, and advocate for foster children. She enjoys long walks with her husband, playing with her son, and is a bobba fanatic (ok addict). Edith writes at Compassionate Healer Ministries, where she equips and empowers women of faith.


How To Live a 2-Star Life in a 5-Star World

So. There are some things that go along with writing a book.

You know besides all the fame and truck loads of money. Heh.

Four months out and I still get weekly questions like, “How’s the book doing so far?” “How many copies have you sold?” “Has it been reviewed in a journal?” “How do you feel about it releasing the same time as five other blogger’s books?” And then suggestions “Maybe you should try to push it here… or Guest post there…”

These are not my favorite.

Because with every question comes a comparison of my book (which sometimes feels a lot like a comparison of me) lined up next to another book (which sometimes feels a lot like a comparison to another author). Although I know it’s my insecurities and not your questions.

And then there are reviews. Words people write about what you’ve written. It can be a lot of noise.

Most days, I waive off the questions and I forget to read the reviews. I handle questions like “So, is your book a success? ” with answers like “I wrote it out of obedience to God.” Because it’s true.

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With daily Mercy House tasks, writing obligations, overseeing Fair Trade Friday, and managing the massive amounts of laundry my family produces, I don’t have time to worry about it. I’ve said from the beginning, this book will do what it’s supposed to do (glorify God, I hope). I don’t have to sell my soul to sell books.

But then there are days I give into the pressure to compare book sales and mostly myself, to others.

These moments are also not my favorite.

Recently, I got my first 2- star review on Amazon. Sales on Amazon are a good general gauge for how your book is doing.  It was sandwiched between two very kind 5-star reviews, but guess which one was loudest?

It said something to the effect of “The 1st part of this book was very interesting and good to read. Then it turned into at least to me an infomercial on the needs of 3rd world countries…”

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I shared the review on my Facebook page, perhaps to satisfy my own need for approval, but I also found encouragement.

But it was words from a missionary friend living in Costa Rica that hit the mark:

She unwittingly gave you one of the best reviews ever. Lord, please let me live a two star life that turns into an infomercial for the needs of others on this earth so I can live a five star life with you forever. #twostars

And it has become my prayer too.

If I’m too busy listening to who the world says I am, I might miss the great I AM speaking.

Because if my goal in this life is to be known, how can I make Him known? 

It’s hard to look at Him when we’re busy looking at ourselves.

For me, success is easily wrapped up in writing and there are plenty of meters to let me know how I’m doing, I mean, how my books are doing. But the same truth applies in every career and situation. If we are comparing our parenting, our homes, our kids, our jobs to other people, we always end up feeling like we don’t measure up.

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How to live a 2-star life in a 5-star world: 

1. Keep our eyes on Him- we can only focus on one thing at a time

2. Don’t compare yourself to others-it skews our perception of truth

3. Live upside down-embrace the small

I’m learning that in this upside Kingdom where small is big and least is more-

Two stars is more than I thought.